Are these psychic abilities or am I just crazy?

by Rose
(New Jersey)

Hi I was hoping someone out there could be of some help. I am 21 years old and I thought for some time I was going insane until I did some research and found that some of what I am going through others have or are also experiencing them.

It all began when I was about 9 years old I was laying in bed when I heard a voice that sounded like my mother call out my name 3 times the voice was clear it didn’t sound muffled or far away actually it sounded as if she was lying right next to me. I got up and looked around but everyone in my house was asleep it scared me and I didn’t get much sleep that night. It didn’t seem to happen again for a while but months later it happened again about the same time of night too my name was called 3 times but everyone was asleep. Finally I went to my mother and explained it to her. See my mother is a very spiritual person and when I told her what was happening she actually seemed happy and she told me next time I heard the voice to answer back. Well I never did I was really young and it scared the hell out of me I just wanted it to go away. Soon after I started to see colors pink blue black yellow you name it but just one at a time and just in patches sometimes they’d move sometimes not. The colors would always dissipate after a minute or so. Also our house is very old first house built on the block late 1800’s early 1900’s you know typical haunted house. I would hear and see things doors slamming shut or quick movements in the mirror. The one thing that still gets me is our basement stairs which is located right next to the entrance of our bathroom anytime I pass by I get this overwhelming feeling like I’m going to get pushed down the stairs or pulled down them or sometimes when I shower I hear a faint breathing and I always have to keep the shower curtain open because I just feel like something is in there but I don’t get this feeling anywhere else in the house just the basement and the bathroom.

When I was 18 I moved in with my father and all this strange stuff stopped happening no more voices colors or feelings it just stopped but when I would go back to visit my mother it would all start happening again. This one time I went and stayed the weekend this particularly freaked me out I was trying to fall asleep and as I was drifting I felt like something was pulling me out of my body if that makes any sense at all I panicked shot right up didn’t sleep that night either. I don’t know if this means anything but I always feel tired when I’m at my mothers I sleep more eat more and feel lazy and just don’t want to do anything nor have the energy to do much. Just a few months ago I had to move back in with my mother and I’m mot hearing things but I still get weird feelings now its kind of like a feeling of being watched to just knowing deep down that I’m not alone. It’s the middle of summer and we have no central air sometimes I get cold or chills you know like the hair on the back of your neck stands up but no one else in the house gets like that. I also hear ringing in my ears sometimes for a second sometimes for hours at a time.

I know it must be strange for someone who grew up in a house where all this is completely accepted and embraced to be so scared of it and so unsure of what it really is but to me it seems strange I guess because I always need an explanation as to why something is happening and with this there really isn’t one at least not my knowledge. Maybe if someone other then my mother can reassure me that I’m not crazy or just assure me that I do need to go get medical attention